Cried today/ Insecurities as a by-product of Depression
I felt good during the day but progressively more tired from not sleeping enough the night before. I had gone to the funeral yesterday evening and needed some time to de-stimulate. Anyway I went out with David and Jan for dinner by my work tonight. I cried and asked why they don't call me enough. I did the same thing to Alice last weekend and my mom (though I didn't cry with my mom). My less-than-ten special people seem to be on a hit list due to my depression. I become concerned that I am not cared about. This is likely increased due to my break-up. As Jan said tonight, "You used to be out of town with S. all the time." They were supportive and asked about plans for the weekend. The funny thing is though I've been appealing to loved ones for more attention and time together I do like time alone, probably more than most people. I don't feel bad tonight, s/p a swim, as I write this.
posted by Jayla @ Tuesday, September 21, 2004
3 Comments:
You know I love you, right? You can call me anytime!
I am feeling mildly anxious today and was glad to have your blog to go to so I don't feel so alone. :-) Thanks.
Call me anytime if depressed--people suffer so much with this chemical disease, and so few people understand what it's really about. Love you-B
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