The Cold
It started Sunday evening. My throat felt scratchy. Then on Monday as the day progressed it worsened. I had taken Vitamin C and Zinc and Echinacea, all in pill form the night before. I also started sucking on Zinc Gluconate lozengers every four hours, as I read about in a booklet. However, the cold attached itself to me anyway, and last night I had horrible chills, shivering, with my joints aching. I took a hot bath, and it felt so good. Then I took an Ambien to fall asleep. I awoke at 6am feeling great, and I thought, "Maybe it was just a bad 24 hour thing." But that wasn't the case. My illnesses always last the average time for a cold which is seven to ten days. My colds always last ten days. And I hate them. Today I felt awful, sapped of all energy. I have an audit coming up at work, and I just could not work. I felt absolutely exhausted. When I don't have my energy, I feel incompetent. My dad taught me that one should always be on task. Even in conversation one should be discussing something useful, like ways to prevent contracting Lyme's Disease. Tonight I took an Advil cold and sinus pill, and I'm feeling a little better. What is terrible is not being able to do my forty-five laps in the swimming pool. I always struggle with how soon into a cold is it best to return to my swimming. Right now I have an bronchitis-cough from the cold. My sinuses never do well either. I don't know where I'm going with this other than colds get me down, and I don't know why. Others are casual about being sick. It's no big deal. For me I cancel all plans and feel awful until it's really over. On top of my cold, four acquaintances have not emailed me back (not related to my cold, just in general). I ruminate about things like that when I'm sick. I can't stay home from work because of this audit coming up at work. I feel gross when I have a cold. I feel out of control of my body. I worry about making other people sick. That's why I tend to stay away from people. I never know when or if I should go to the doctor. I tried to look on the internet for information about people getting very depressed from colds but I couldn't find anything. I dread them and feel self-conscious about my major reaction to them. My world shuts down. Well, I'm going in circles now, so I guess I'll stop.
posted by Jayla @ Tuesday, March 15, 2005
6 Comments:
Thanks, P-f. I like orange juice. I woke up this morning feeling awful so I called in sick and went to the doctor. He gave me the anti-biotic, z-pac, and I started it today.
J's terror of giving D a cold and worsening his asthma, spread to me too. We were way out of line in instilling terror of colds in our family. God it's just a cold, tho I too find myself depressed and un-useful when I have one. Plus, I HATE pain and discomfort.
I just hope it feels better very soon, and if not, I'll come minister to my dear girl.
Love, B
Sorry you're not feeling well. I get more anxious and depressed when I'm physically sick. It's a chemical thing, we can't help it. Orange juice sounds like a good idea, it will keep your blood sugar up. Feel better soon!!
Oh, sweetie. I am so sorry you are feeling so bad. Definitely wise to stay away from swimming (and all exercise) until you are feeling better. Trust the nurse on this one. ;-) You need all of your energy to get well. Sounds like you've got more than a cold - sounds like the flu to me. I question the antibiotic. Flus and colds are viruses, which antibiotics won't help - they'll just promote antibiotic resistance. Have you checked your temperature? If it's above 101, then you might have a bacterial infection, in which case the antibiotics would help. The flu is miserable, though, so I think getting a pill - any pill - makes me feel better, too. Drink lots of fluid and get lots of rest. Rent movies, heat up some vegetable soup and cuddle with your kitties - that's the best remedy I know! :-) I hope you feel better soon!
Thanks for the comment on my blog. I hope you're feeling better! Take care of yourself!
Colds always make me feel more anxious because I hate feeling like I am not productive. On the flip side I am so happy to hear that the Zoloft is working better for you. Gotta love it when the "sinuses clear up and the sun shines in".
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